Starting Over-A Degenerate Gambler’s Story | Soft White Underbelly
Returning to Soft White Underbelly for the third time gave me the opportunity to share the chapter most people never see—federal prison, the halfway house, home confinement, and the difficult road back. Nothing was scripted. Just the raw, unfiltered truth about the consequences of my choices, the lessons I learned, and the mindset it took to rebuild my life. Thank you for taking the time to watch my journey. I hope my story helps someone make better decisions and never give up on their own comeback.
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Rise, Fall & Recalibration | Soft White Underbelly
Being a guest on @SoftWhiteUnderbelly with Mark Laita was unlike anything I’ve ever done.
This isn’t a podcast. It’s a raw, unfiltered deep dive into the light and dark parts of my story—success, failure, resilience, and the lessons in between. For over 2 ½ hours, I opened up about the highs, the lows, and the truth behind the wild ride of my life. Nothing scripted. Nothing held back. Just honesty. I hope you take something from it.
My book Recalibrate is available now on Amazon — the full story in even greater depth.
Wife of a Gamble | Bookmaker – Nicole Bowyer
Huge gratitude to Mark Laita and Soft White Underbelly for giving us space to share this story.
In this interview, Nicole—wife of Mathew (Matt) Bowyer—opens up about life beside a high-stakes gambler and bookmaker: the dizzying casino wins, the gut-punch losses, and what it felt like when the FBI raided their home. She talks candidly about becoming a mom amid nonstop travel, the PTSD that followed the raid, and how their marriage grew stronger when the gambling stopped. Nicole also shares her own childhood trials—abuse, instability, and the grandparents who helped save her—plus why she now craves a quieter, more grounded life for their family.